Archive~My Links~ Oh! waking is a bitter nightmare..when you constantly hang around the fringes of my dreams.. ..my foundation is crumbling and shattered glass is falling all over sidewalks.. ..i am collapsing and i am collapsing on myself.. i am shards of glass..and i am the person being wounded by the glass.. ..there is a certain beautiful honesty about depression.. ..will Candy and honey not ..sweeten the Bitter acrimony of life? ..if truth indeed be a fallacy, then should reality not be a lie? Truth is like water. A little of it quenches your thirst Too much of it..and you drown. |
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
There are lots of Eastern European students in the Work and Travel programme. They are mostly Russian. I have been hearing Russian music in all it's variety. Russian pop, techno..and even Russian Trance! Who would have thought huh? But Russian rock is good..sounds very angsty, thought I do not even understand a word. These internationals seem to spend every waking hour drinking, smoking or blasting music. They really know how to enjoy life..(hmm..that may be questionable)
This guy in our neighbourhood went missing last week. He went to the campus lib to study, and he went missing after that. He was found dead this morning, shot in the head. It give me the creeps, because all that happened just around the neighbourhood. Night after night, i hear police sirens wailing continously. I will no longer complain abt the incompetence of Singapore police or security. I crave for the safety Singapore offers me..haha I have been working alot of kids these days. I really enjoy working with them. They are soo cute! They always seem to have so much fun ( although the rides are really lame, and as exciting as a bench), so it becomes endearing. I think you need to really love kids to do this job, if not you will prob lose patience soon. The kids can get really naughty sometimes, so occasionally you gotta really yell at them, and be damn firm with them. Kids can be qutie dirty too Like this kid got so scared of the ride, he crapped in his pants, and in the car, and I had to carry him out. I can promise you the smell certainly wasn't chanel no.9, or Calvin Klein's Eternity. Overall, I guess I really don't mind, coz I really love kids very much :) I am looking forward to the day I get to savour the hot and delicious, moist taste of Hokkien mee upon my toungue. I think abt it every moment, every minute. Its ridiculous. It's almost like an obession. I had cold Pasta salad today (again), but it certainly beats canned soup and cup noodles. (Actually, I kinda enjoy cup noodles) Im going off now..the Russian music in the computer room is driving me nuts. It's rotting my brain. ( I haven't got much left, so its really valuable). Ok crap. I am starting to talk rubbish now. I am not making sense at all.. Its happening..its happening...
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/31/2006
Saturday, May 27, 2006
I'm finally back from New York! Hooray...or BOO rather..back to Boring old Virginia.
There are these black gals in the computer room with me now, who are totally irritating the crap out of me. For the past hour, their incessant nattering and bimbotic chatter has been driving me nuts. Its so bad I can't even hear myself think! Gawd. They are so LOUD and annoying. If its one thing abt the Americans I can't stand ,is that they are ALL LOUD! (ok..i exaggerate...MOST of them are loud) I don't MEAN to be racist, but the blacks are usually the loudest of them all. And its really true. They are the ones who can get really violent. ( I am not saying others are not prone to violence too, but I have seen it with my own eyes) Sometimes, I wonder how come they keep complaining abt pple being racist towards them. I mean sometimes, their attitude really makes one.... Ok. Maybe it's their culture? I dunoo. Those annoying gals are finally GONE. I think my brain has ceased functioning. The number of "F" words they punctuate their sentences with, is amazing. It makes me realize how versatile the "F" word can be. It can be used as a verb, a noun, pronoun..wad ever. Oh yes, and a form of punctuation too, of course. Oh great, and now there is this annoying guy (their fren), who is jabbering loudly on the phone, and talking abt really retarded stuff. I mean, I don't mean to eavesdrop or criticize, but hey, I mean if he's yelling into the phone as if the other party was deaf, I can't help it if I just happen to hear his conversation. Oh yes, and since I'm irritated, I have every licence to criticize too. Ok. that was mean. They are finally gone. Thank God! I have finally learn the value of silence. New York is very nice, and exciting. The streets are busy, vibrants and teeming with life! It is very different from Virginia, where the tallest building ( there are even buildings??) is prob like 4 storeys high ( the motels). New York is full of skyscrapers, huge, and magestic. The shopping is great ( but too expensive to do much damage) It is very cosmopolitan, and it is certainly a melting pot of cultures. There are so many different types of pple in NY, and so many diff cultures, foods...etc. I had a really good time in NY, enjoying very good food. ( Now its back to cup noodles and campbell soup. ) We went to Little Korea and had a sumptious and authentic Korean meal. The next day, we went to Little Italy and had the best pasta and tiramisu (ok...by Singapore Standards). On day three, we went to the Serendipidity Cafe, and had this HUGE bowl of frozen hot choc, with whipped marshmallow. Absolutely heavenly. But the food (and things) don't keep cheap, and now I am very much a pauper, and will have to survive on apples and cereals. I won't be surprised if I become thinner by the time I get back to Singapore. Just as well. The Hostel We stayed in was..well..in one word. YUCK. But for 20 bucks a night, one can't really complain. The toilets were shared. Like on Bathroom per floor. There were six floors altogether. The hostel was very old, and in very bad shape. The doors were all creaky, the walls were all peeling, and the elevator did not work. We had a good time climbing up and down in the stairs. On the first night, we got stuck in the elevator, so we had to use all our strength of physically pull the door apart (or we would have been stuck there..doubt anyone would have come to save us) The hostel looks OK, in the daylight, but at night, it's really scary, especially since all the doors creak, and the walls are really thin, so you can hear doors and floors creaking continously throughout the night. The bathrooms are really scary, esp when you see what's inside the toilet ball. I admit, that part freaked me out more then anything else. There was a really curious smell, that lingered along our corridors, throughout our stay there. A little like rancid tomato. But I really couldn't place the smell. Our room was painted a dark purple color. For all Future interior designers, architects, or what ever...a word of advice. Please never do paint you walls DARK purple in color. It is beyond me, why anyone would even want to do that. It makes the room feel oppressive..and claustrophobic. It didn't help that the room was really small and dark. I guess after 3 nights, we got pretty used to it, and well, it did help that we vowed to spend as LITTLE time as poss in the room ( a max of 8 hrs, only for sleeping) I wouldn't say it was a terrible experience, (though not a pleasant one), but it was an interesting experience. I mean how often would u get to stay in a place like that? New York is pretty dangerous, but I just Thank God we are back safe and sound. Though we walked to streets at night, and lingered around Times Square till pretty late, we still felt safe. The streets were brightly lit, and very crowded, so I guess we didn't feel the danger. However, on the second day, we heard and saw this great commotion in Times Square. We were walking as usual along the streets, when we heard shouts, and there was this crowd shoving and pushing us. Immediately, we sensed danger, so we stepped aside. We saw 12 policemen (NYPD) grabbing this guy, and wrapping him up in the gunnysack. The guy was struggling and it took 12 policemen (this I kid you not) to hold him down. Apparently, the guy had a gun, and he was crazy or something. It was kinda freaky..but interesting? Many people in the crowd were busy snapping pictures. I guess this is not a sight you see everyday ( Maybe in NY, it happens everyday). I constantly heard the wail of police sirens and fire engines, even throughout the night. Lucky for us, we were very safe, we did not get mugged and killed. Times square is really gorgeous at night! I am so glad we did not miss it! The lights were magical, and the whole place was very colorful, and crowded. I can't imagine Times square during Christmas. It would prob be like 16 times more beautiful. The streets were littered with very interesting and funky shops. There was this massive choc shop which sold chocs in all varieties, as well as choc products, such as Hershey earrings and Hersheys necklaces! So pretty! But the prices were...Hm..just as nice too..Haha.. SOHO is a very fashionable area. Actually, Ny in generally is very fashionable. The people are very well dressed. The place is simply teeming very culture and history. The Metropolitan Museum of Art, and the Museum of Modern Art were very impressive (prob can't compare to Washington, but its much better then what u'll ever get in Singapore). They place much emphasis on culture, arts, music and dance. Musicals are aplenty, and they were showing so many broadway shows!! Unfortunately, tickets cost a bomb, so we had to give them a miss. It makes me laugh to think how Singapore once tried (or IS still trying?) to become a "renaissance" city, or an "arts and cultural hub". It will never compare to NY. I guess it's unfair of me to say that, considering the fact, Singapore is really small, very short of resources, and has a short history. True. It's just sad, because I find NY more interesting and lively in comparison. However, that dosent mean I don't miss home. I still do miss home, the food, the familiarity, the conveniences...the safety etc.. Unfortunately, when one is having great fun, the days seem to fly by. So before I know it, here I am, back again in boring old Virginia. I already miss New York. NY would be like an artist's palate full of color, and Virginia would be..hmm..I dunno. Virginia has its charms and it's at best, quaint, but life does get a little boring sometimes. Plus, it gets very dark and drab at night unlike NY. Im off to bed now. I need to start work early tmr.. I need a longer holiday...
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/27/2006
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
I will be headed off to New York City for the night. Hopefully everything will go smoothly. Everyone has been warning me how dangerous NYC is. Im getting a little scared. The 7 Hour bus ride sounds terribly uncomfortable too.
We just moved into the hostel in the Virginia commonwealth university today. The room looks sparse, bare and cold. It is very cramped. PLUS, we had to pay for bedsheets and pillows. ME and Gladys, being poor as we already are, decided to scrimp and save and not buy blankets. We will brave the cold and turn into ice popsicles in order to save the money. I can't believe this is the way I am living. haha. It was a double-decker bed, but we managed to shift the beds down, so now we have both got a bed, side and side. I hate double deckers. They freak me out. The bottom makes me feel claustrophobic, and the top makes me feel like I am about to fall off any moment. Ok, apart from cyncial, add paranoid to the list of growing negatives abt me. Alright, the room is livable..not that bad. Not as good as the hotel though. It lacks a TV, thus the room somehow feels lifeless. That's what technology has done to us. It has enslaved us so badly, we no longer see any entertainment value in other things. What ever happened to the simple pleasures of blowing bubbles, playing five stones, and tic-tack-toe? Ok. The point is. It's just different without a TV. Ok..Im off the pack for New York now..
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/23/2006
Sunday, May 21, 2006
Ok, on Second thought, I think I really make myself sound more wretched and pathetic then I actually am.
It's not so bad actually.
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/21/2006
Its 3.30am here in the USA, and I can't bloody sleep. Im gonna fall sick soon I figure.
Of all the bimbotic things to do when Im thousands of miles away from home, Im looking at my friendster pcis ( been a long time since I have logged on), and I must say, in retrospect, I am quite disgusted by myself. Ok, or rather, I am quite mortified and disgusted by my photographs. (and captions) Since when did I ever get so act cute? Gawd, I am a disgrace. I shall not take down the photographs. I shall continue to leave them on friendster, as a sore and painful reminder of my bad photo days. Its torturous to continue looking at my own pics, so I will just log out. I wonder how many people who saw my pics ( who even bothered!) would be disgusted by them. Ok..why am I even wondering abt such inconsequential stuff? Muz be the mere existential boredom, of sitting sleepless in a cramped hotel room, million miles away from home... Whatever. The two weeks in USA seem like a long time. I have gotten a tad more creative (or desperate) within these two weeks. It seems like I have found a new way to cook campbell soup. Due to the lack of stove or mircowave in the room or premises, I have discovered that I can now cook my soup in a coffee pot, using a coffee maker. Now how innovative is that? Or maybe its hunger and desperation that drives the human spirit on. Ok. I am not as pathetic as I make myself sound. There was a fire in the hotel that day. The fire engines and police came. It freaked everyone out. It turned out to be nothing in the end. Fire engines seem to be a common sight here. I wonder why. Work, work work. We almost got sent home today AGAIN, because they were overstaffed. This time, i put my foot down. I totally refused to go back. I mean i pay 2700 for a air ticket here, to work, not to get sent home. They are rather inefficient. I guess once they realised we were unhappy, and were gonna stand up for our own rights, they decided to reconsider their decision to send us home. I refused to get pushed around. True, we are the american equivalent of Bangla workers, but hey. i refuse to be treated like one. Damn, I sound so snobbish. Now I understand how these workers feel. New York seems so near, yet so far away.. New York, New York, when am I ever gonna be able to step foot there? Washington is awesome. I love the National museum of art. I intend to take another two day trip to Washington. There are so many museums there, its impossible to finish exploring all of them. I miss chicken rice, Ban mian, and hokkien mee so bad. Today during work, I swear I was just fantasizing abt this hot, steaming plate of beef kuay teow. Its is true then, that daydreams are to delusions of the devil. The sheer impossibility of it, makes my heart ache all the more. I will start to appreciate Hawker food more when I get back. I keep thinking of all the delicious food so constantly that I think I will go mad soon. How am I ever gonna be able to further my studies overseas at this rate?!??!??!??!! Adaptable, Adaptable, Adpatable. I must learn to be.
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/21/2006
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
will continue with more update from the Adventures of Thrifty Dawn and Gladys!
The locals here in Richmond, Virginia all think we are from China. Apparently, to them, Asians are all from China. I have been hamburgers in all its glory and variety here. Many kinds..and the portions are huge! Makes the little puny cheese burgers in Singapore look sad. For Rollercoaster fans, the rides in the park are a God-send. For a chicken-hearted person like me, don't bother trying. The rollercoasters here are seriously hardcore. They make Singapore's Escape theme park ( you even call that a theme park??) look like a kiddy playground ( and that's being kind). We got sent off early from work last Sunday, because of bad weather, thus we decided to play around in the park. However, being chicken-hearted, i had to sit out most of the rides. The hypersonic, is this super fast coaster, that had a VERTICAL drop ( and a really high one at that). My colleagues, (the brave souls) were screaming like maniacs even before the ride took off. (Apparently the ride goes SO fast you hardly have time to scream during the ride, so you gotta do all the screaming BEFORE the ride takes off). The only roller coaster i sat was the kiddie one, the Scooby-Doo roller Coaster. I am embarrassed to admit that I was the only one screeching my lungs off throughout the whole ride. Haha..I think everyone was quite disgusted with me! Hey, but it prob takes a REALLY BRAVE KID to take that ride! I guess thats the best I could do. *sigh*. A kid's roller coaster. My fave rides are the rides that spin around and around. Apparently, most pple don't take those rides coz they're scared of motion sickness, and they're afraid of the giddiness. Yay* Finally, I feel so proud of myself! Something I DARE to sit, but other's don't. The type of rides that make me quake in fear are the drop rides. I hate the feeling of having my heart in my mouth. I swear, everytime the rollercoaster dips, I always feel as if my heart will stop any moment, and the next thing I know, I'm in Heaven. (IF i'm lucky..hahah..) We spent the whole of yesterday painting, and picking up Rusty nails under the roller coaster tracks. The entire bunch of us agree, that we are almost like the "Bangla workers" of the USA. Underpaid, overworked, and "sai kang" workers. Sigh. It was kinda interesting tho...Its amazing how much nonsense you can find under the roller coaster tracks : Sunglasses, maps, scarves, bottlecaps..and get this..MONEY..lots of it. We found lots of coins, and even rings underneath the tracks. Apparently, people lose alot of stuff during coaster rides.Must be the huge impact of something. Ok..enuff updates for now.. my stomach is protesting..
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/16/2006
Its been ages since I have updated my blog.
:( I am homesick, homesick, homesick! :( In case anyone's wondering, I am currently in the USA now, in Virginia. This place is very ulu, full of trees, hardly any shopping. :( Current addictions include : Cup noodles ( I have been eating it 5 days in a row..thats a record) and Campbell chunky soup ( never tasted so good). Its the cheapest thing I can get here, coz the stuff here is really expensive. Dawn, is being a thrifty girl for a change. Current cravings include, Hokkien mee, Ban mian, char kuay teow, mee pok ta..etc. :( I just realized I am actually very "localized". The food here sucks. Its fast food, fast food...and hey surprise!! More fast food! haha I will be off to an Eastern Buffet later. :) Apparently its got pretty decent chinese food, and a sushi spread! I can't wait. It will be a welcome change from all that grease i've been snorting up. and a double bonus, is that its like five bucks! Where are you ever gona find a buffet so cheap in Singapore? Haha On Wed, Its off to Washington DC for me. Unfortunately, its just a daytrip :( Can't complain tho...it will be a welcome change from Virginia. We met a Cambodian cashier at the Wendy's fastfood restaurant, who kept asking us abt a particular Singaporean dish that was " A little bit the soupy, some hot on it, and the noodle on top." After much enquiry ( his english was problematic and hard to understand), we finally deduced that he was talking abt "lor mee" or maybe "mee pok". So we wrote it down for him, and asked him to tell the food court uncle when he was ordering. (Apparently the Cambodian dude will be jetting off to Singapore this June) Work at the park is tiring , but quite fun coz Im working with the kiddies! Plus, I get to see my fave spongebob and patrick! I wish I was a costume person, coz the job is pretty slack. Its like, you just walk arnd the park and wave to the kiddos. :) The kids here are simply adorable. It makes you wanna grab them, and bring them home. :P There was this kid however, that pee-ed in one of the bumper cars, and i had to carry him out (dripping and everything) and clean up his pee..haha.yucks :P Im getting used to it though..crying kids, pee-ing kids..all kinda kids :) Our room looks like a refugee's hideout now. Me and Gladys, being the typical, kisau Singaporeans have been stocking up on canned food, and taking free cereal and apples from the breaskfast table, to keep, so we can bring them with us when we move into the Virginia Hostel. That way, we can save MORE money on food. Haha. Our tables are now full of plastic bags, filled to the brim with food and fruits. I'm kinda disgusted at our cheapo-ness, but at the same time, proud that we manage to save so much $$$$. Things here don't come cheap, so its wise to be thrifty. My Eastern Buffet Beckons me now. My sad, hungry stomach is certainly agreeable. :)
dawn fairy on the moon at 5/16/2006
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
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